fragmenhujan

Pauline: you know when you love something so much you start to hate it?

Matthew: yes.

Pauline: is that what happened to you and your books?

Matthew: i stopped looking at my books when i stopped loving life.

Pauline: why did you stop loving life?

Matthew: well, you don't love life itself. you love, uh, places, animals, people, memories, food, literature, music. and sometimes you meet someone who requires all the love you have to give. and if you lose that someone, you think everything else is gonna stop too. but everything else just keeps on going. Giraudoux said, you can miss a single being, even though you are surrounded by countless other. those people are like...like extras. they could your vision, they're a meaningless crowd. they...they're an unwelcome distraction. so you seek oblivion in solitude. but solitude only makes you wither.

Pauline: so i'm an unwelcome distraction. i'm a cloud?

Matthew: you are the only part of my life i haven't figured out yet.

-Mr. Morgan's Last Love